There was a time I was confused about so much in life, my purpose, the vision God had for me, who I was, & even my salvation. I mean to be honest, there were times when the world looked more appeasing than God & salvation. I know that sounds horrible & maybe too transparent for some but that was my reality at one point. Come to find out I was confused because I really wasn’t aware or knowledgeable of my options. You see God gives us choices and because I didn't know what I wanted I dabbled in so much trying to figure it out. I experienced what the world had to offer but didn’t realized the detriment it had on my life in the long run BUT I also experienced religion but still had know clue who God was or why I even cared to know who He was.
Most of us desire things & people that are able to benefit or contribute to our lifestyles somehow & because I didn’t know what God was capable of or able to offer, my view on Him was fuzzy. Which is why unstableness & disloyalty were so evident in my life. The fear of commitment was my issue. Committing to something I had no knowledge of, committing to the fear of uncertainty, committing to stability when straddling the fence was a lifestyle for me. I didn’t mind taking the risk or bidding on my soul because I wasn’t aware of the effect & I’m not just talking about hell. I know some use hell as a “scare tactic” but when people already feel like they’re going through hell on earth, eternal hell doesn’t seem so bad especially when the worldly things seem to bring some type of "pleasure". (This is also how spritual strongholds can come about, satan tries to capture the minds of people with beliefs that are contrary to TRUTH.) What I’m saying is God doesn’t want you to come to Him because you’re scared of hell, he wants you to decide to come into relationship with Him because of HIM. There is no better decision then choosing to stay loyal to Jesus. It is He who gives us HOPE & that’s what some of us are missing today. I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in him. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit, Romans 15:13. God’s character & love is what should draw your loyalty to Him. In no way am I saying that making the decision to leave your normal & choosing God in every area of your life will be easy BUT it is possible & worth it. No one likes unstable & wishy washy people in their lives & this is true with God as well. But unlike humans, God is willing to prove Himself over & over again to us. You have a birthright as Sons & Daughters of God! I beg you not to throw it away for temporary pleasures.
“But when you ask him, be sure that your faith is in God alone. Do not waver, for a person with divided loyalty is as unsettled as a wave of the sea that is blown and tossed by the wind. Such people should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. Their loyalty is divided between God and the world, and they are unstable in everything they do.” James 1:6-8